Tuesday, March 30, 2010

林宇中 - 葉枯過

Suddenly the feeling is so strong for this song when I listen back. When the first time I heard it, it really captured my attention. I was mesmerized by the soothing melody and the simple yet meaningful lyrics of the song.

Title: 葉枯過 (Ye Ku Guo)
Singer: 林宇中 (Rynn Lim)
Composer: 林宇中 (Rynn Lim)
Lyricist: 林宇中 (Rynn Lim)


Sunday, March 28, 2010

My Lovely Hometown

Malacca - The best place on Earth!

Blogging Marathon

I really admire those friends of mine who can enjoy their lives doing things they like. Looking at their victory, memories, achievement and excitement had made me realized that I've missed out many things.

I love basketball but I've abandoned it for years.
I love badminton but I've not played it for months.
I love singing but I've not been doing it for weeks.
I love dancing but I've not been active in it.
I love travelling but I've failed to plan it for many times.
I love... but...
I love... but...
I love... but...

When can I do the things I love?
When can I achieve my dreams?

It's all in my hand!

Guilty, guilty, guilty...

I'm sorry to Chris and Neni.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Staying alone in room isn't that nice after all...

It's so quiet here. I can only hear the sound of the fan in my room.

I'm lonely.

A Quiz From FB

You will fulfill every goal you set out to achieve. Money is there for the taking. Your love life will be the envy of all who come in contact with you. Family and friends are extremely happy and excel because of the advice and comfort you give to them. You will be worshiped, praised, and admired by all, and feel good about yourself and those you have effected around you. Life will be amazing!

I no longer recognize love.

I no longer recognize love. It seems like a stranger to me. I know the love for friends and family but not for relationship. In fact, I'm deeply in love with my family and friends. How does it feel like loving someone other than friends and family? Is the feeling same?

I really don't know. Is it because I have not been in love for years that I already forgotten it? It sounds ridiculous right? But this is what I feel.

Sometimes, I thought I'm in love with someone. But at certain times, I feel that actually I'm not. How come? So actually what is love? In this case, it really proves that I no longer recognize love anymore.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Thunder & Lightning

The thunder sound and lightning view are so scary now. The sound is so loud that it feels like the God is angry at us. The lightning keep appearing non-stop that it might strike the land any time. It has been going on for quite a while but with no rain at all. This phenomenon is weird because it has never happen before. Usually rain comes along very fast. But this time, no. This is the first time that I feel thunder and lightning are so scary. Finally, it rains. But still the thunder and lightning continue to show their power, seem like trying to overtake one another.

I support you!

Freedom of speech? I doubt in Malaysia. If we can't even express our own opinions and feelings in our own blogs, then where is the freedom?

Of course we can't please everyone in this world, not even God. But it's our right to speak. If it happens that you don't like what the person wrote, then just stop reading and leave. Nobody force you to read.

Some people just grow older in age, but their thinking is super childish! And I'm talking about this based on my experiences. So in conclusion, even if you are older, doesn't mean you are more mature and have better thinking.

P/S: Hwei, keep blogging!

Apa Ini?

What can I do to help her? She cried. I went to her place just to see her. She didn't want me to see her ugly face (crying face). She didn't want to tell her problem. I couldn't do anything to console her. She said, after crying, she will be fine. I'm worried because she wouldn't cry if it's not a serious problem. Haiz...

For the first time in my life, I felt...
Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo silly.
Soooooooooooooooooooooooo confused.
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooo helpless.
Soooooooooooooooooooooooooo useless.
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo lost.

Can someone tell me, what situation I'm in now?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Accounting Nite 2010

The Accounting Nite 2010 has just ended. Finally!! Phew... Last week was such a busy week with the workshop conducted everyday. But it was worthwhile. The Accounting Nite 2010 was a great success. The performances were nice. Many seniors liked it especially the Hand Mime performance that we prepared for them.

The Logo

The Backdrop *Theme: Mystical Twilight*

The Dedication Board

Thanks to the special person who came to support us!
You Know Me: Now I know you! ^^

My Good Friends
Thanks for the help, support and cooperation!

My "Grandma"
Thanks for coming to support me!

My Deputy Director + Good Friend
Thanks for recruiting me!

Programme Department
We are the best!

My Programme Head + Good Friend
Thanks for trusting me!

The Signature Board
Best wishes from all the participants

Although it was a fun night, I had a little disappointment too. There was a UMAC Board Installation on that night. It was to choose who are going to lead the UM Accounting Club for the 2010/2011 session.

I applied for it. But I wasn't selected. At that moment when they were announcing, I had a mixed feeling. Disappointed yet relief. Disappointed because I wasn't selected. Relief because I have less burden to carry on my back.

At times, after I applied for it, I have thought of not being selected because I couldn't imagine how busy will I be if I were to be part of the committee in the board. But not getting to be part of the board to join a group of my close friends in UM and spend time together doing activities is something I'm upset of. Although we still spend time together, but the feeling would be different. I enjoy doing things with a group of friends whom I have already had strong bonding of relationship with them. It is fun!

No matter what it is, I believe everything that happens, happens for a reason. A good one of course.

To my friends who succeed: Congratulations!! I'm happy for you all! =)
To my friend who didn't: God is preparing another path for you.
To myself: Live your life to the fullest! Lots more things for you to catch up! ^^

Saturday, March 20, 2010


Stefienoki guessed...

...that the person she likes might like someone else.

Friday, March 19, 2010

It's Getting Crazy

It's 5 o'clock in the morning and here I am skipping my sleeping time to blog here. It's not that I purposely want to blog at this hour. I'm just waiting for my hair to dry before I can go to sleep. @@

These few days I have been sleeping very 'early'. Busy with Accounting Night performances. Although tiring, it was enjoyable because I love to perform. ^^

Sometimes I feel that I'm too sensitive. There are pros and cons for it. Looking at the good side, being sensitive I can be more aware and observant to my surroundings and the people around me. So whenever it is possible, I would always care, speak, act or think for others to avoid hurting them. Looking at the bad side, sometimes I tend to misunderstand others easily or misinterpret the meaning that is brought by them.

To some extent, sometimes I would misunderstand that people have crush on me. Making me feeling that I have hope. Silly me! I guess next time I must be more rational. Haha...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

So Long...

I'm not the type of person who can let go of friends easily. I don't easily give up friendship. Even if we face problems along the way, I would always try my best to hold on to it.

WHY? The answer is simple. Every single friends of mine are important to me. They are as equally as important as myself to me. Time passes very fast. Day by day our gap grows wider. I don't know if there's any turning back. Sometimes I really felt like crying out. I really do. I don't know who to turn to. And my blog is the best companion.

I don't know why friends are so important to me. Even if I need to sacrifice for them. Am I the one having problem? I seriously don't know. If anyone can tell me the answer, I would appreciate that a lot. But please don't ask me to give up the friendship. I really don't want to.

I guess our memories have past and it can only remains as memories. Sweet memories. But will that ever last? They are fading... The memories are flying... Just like this picture, so nostalgic. It's like from the past. Old-aged. And I know we can't revive it.

We're leaving soon. You and me, different directions. This is the hardest time for me.

So long, my friends...

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I realized...

that people come and go. No one will ever stay static at a point. Even friendship... Unless both sides put effort in maintaining it. I'm happy that I have few good friends whom I've known since primary/secondary school and we're still best friends now. ^^

However, I'm sad that some friends whom I knew in UM are no longer close now although there was once we used to be. Maybe it's fated. Or maybe it's my fault. I really hope we could remain the same and make our friendship last forever. I really mean it. But I think it's hard.

I don't know what I can do. Can anyone tell me what should I do?

Why do I care so much?

We were once very close.

We talked a lot, we shared a lot, we laughed together, we cried together.
But now we no longer do.
There's a wall between us.
An invisible wall.
Although we meet everyday, but we are just like strangers.
No more talking, no more sharing, no more laughters, no more tears.
I don't know what else I can do.
I've tried very hard to maintain it.
I really do.
But it was all in vain.
You never appreciate.
You never put the effort.
I'm really tired.
I'm very sad.
Why can't we get back to how we used to be?
Have I changed?
Or have you changed?
I cherish you, I cherish our friendship. But do you?
When we leave this May, we won't be coming back.
No more hanging out coz we're on different track.
I know it, but it's hard to accept.


Sunday, March 14, 2010

Many things to say... Don't know where to begin...

Life is so unpredictable...

Yeah... I admit that these few days my emotion isn't that stable...


Thursday, March 11, 2010




Humans are complicated...

and I am complicated too!

I'm feeling weird on myself. Serious! I don't know why I'm feeling that way but I just don't feel right. In other words, I think I'm emo-ing now... >_<


I hate this kind of feeling! It just upset me.

Hmm... It's complicated when I don't even know...

what I want?

what I'm thinking?

what's in mind?

what I'm putting myself into?

where I'm heading to?

why am I behaving this way?

why I can't get myself right?

why I'm so weak in principle?

how am I going through it?


Saturday, March 6, 2010

Have you ever felt this way?

I went for MAK (Malam Anugerah Kurshiah) yesterday night. It's an annual dinner for my hostel. All the residents of the hostel are obliged to pay RM100 per person even if we don't wish to attend. Since it's already charged in our fees, I might as well go (not to waste the RM100).

Though it's not an event which I love to attend, I had fun during the dinner taking photos with friends. Human nature especially girls just love to SS. Haha...

I'm not uploading any photo here coz the connection is slow. Maybe will upload some day later.

I think I sudah tua... Last time, I very "zi lian" (means like to take photo of myself a lot). Now, lazy d... Maybe it's a sign that I'm no longer teenager, but young adult... I doubt if myself is still young... Since I recovered from the last serious sickness, I really felt that I'm old d...

I think it's time...

To rest...

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Life is just so simple...

These few days went out for dinner with Hwei. On Monday we went to Eat & Run in Tropicana Mall and yesterday we went to Piccadilly. So bahagia!!! ^^ Haha... I seldom go out to eat when I'm in UM and facing those same food everyday, you know la... where got appetite to eat, right?

This week can say is the week I've eaten the most nice food since I'm back to UM this semester. Wakaka... Last time I was always busy with activities and meetings, so seldom got the time to hang out with friends and even have a proper dinner. Now, only left one last project, Accounting Night. Then, I'm done!! Finally I can retire!!

Starting from next semester, I want to focus more on self-development. I want to learn up some skills. I want to get involve with more activities that are on performance basis, not management/organizing basis anymore. Hope my dreams would come true... ^^

P/S: Thanks, Hwei! ^^

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Busy Month

These 2 weeks my room mates are busy with their faculty's project as both of them are the high executives for this project. I talk less with them. Somehow I feel that our bond this year is not as strong as last year. Maybe we've changed. We interact lesser. Sometimes we don't even talk to one another. Feels like there's a gap between us.

I really cherish them as friends. But a hand that claps won't make the sound. No matter how hard is it to maintain the friendship, I will never give up even to the extend that I need to sacrifice.

I just hope our friendship will get stronger and better just like last year. Perhaps this is the last year that I'm going to stay with them. And when we've moved out later on, it'll be harder for us to gather. I just hope this friendship will last.