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It's been long since I updated my blog. Now that I have time to sit in front of my notebook to blog, I don't know what to write.

Maybe there was just too much things to say that I didn't know how and where to begin.

In short, that's all I have to say. =p

Dearest Room-Mates

I know I've not updated my blog for quite a long time. But today I want to blog. I want to write out how I feel. I want to write this post today especially for my room-mates.



I met them when I entered UM for the very first day. We were like strangers at that time (in fact, we were strangers) because we did not know each other. I didn't know how they were and what type of people they are and neither do they know me.



As each day passes, we started to talk more and more to each other. Until now, we've been staying with each other for almost 7 months. Our friendship became very strong and our personalities blend well with each other.



But I want to apologize to them. All this while I thought I understand them and knew them well but I'm not. I'm not sensitive enough towards how they feel and think until today when I read their blog, then only I knew I was so ignorant to their life and what's happening around them, what are they thinking and how are they feeling.



They treat me very well, we are just like a family. Whenever I'm involved in any activities, they would surely come to support me. And we have many similarities in thinking and characterictics. That's why we were fated to be put and stayed together in the same room.



To See Eng: I know at first when you knew me, I looked very cool, somehow talked less. And I was always busy with my assignments and activities. That's why you sometimes dare not talk to me. But whenever we have free time, we started to talk more. I'm happy that you are willing to share your personal stories with me, which make me understand you better, get to know more about you. But somehow, each of us would still have something within ourselves that is never spoken out. And this is what we called feeling. From the conversations I have with you, I can feel that you are a person who cares and thinks more for others rather than yourself. And you would always put others first before yourself. That is why sometimes you would rather you are the one that is being hurt for the happiness of others. After I read your blog, only I knew you actually did not want to go for MAK. But at that time I didn't know about it and keep asking you and Mun Chieng to go just because I wanted the 3 of us to spend great time together without even thinking how you would feel. I really enjoy the time we've spent together. It's great to have you and Mun Chieng as my room-mates.

To Mun Chieng: Although we talked lesser to each other, this doesn't mean that we are not close. Sometimes when I want to share my stories with you, you would always listen very patiently and attentively to me. You are a good listener. But sometimes I feel that if you have problems, you are less likely to speak it out and share with us. I don't want to see you feeling down and sad and yet, I couldn't do anything to help you. As your room-mate, sometimes I feel myself is not a good room-mate to you all. I feel that there are many things that I don't know and sometimes don't even how you feel at certain moment. When I read your blog, only I knew that you have "xin shi". Maybe sometimes it's hard for you to share your personal stories with us, but I hope if next time if you ever have any problems, don't keep to yourself, k? Although I don't know what I can do to help you, but at least you can share your burden with us. It's better to speak it out than keeping to yourself. Your room-mates will worry de...


Two more months left to go before the semester break. I really feel "bu se de" because both of you are shifting out soon. I hope I can stay with you all as room-mates until we graduate. But this is life. I guess I have to face it. Let us make a promise that we will always keep in touch and hang out together, k? I will miss you guys a lot!!!

Accounting Camp 2009!!

Yo! Finally I'm back! Sorry to keep you guys waiting and thanks for the patience. Here comes the story of Accounting Camp 2009!!

This is our banner! (All hand-drawn)

Organising Committee

Our director. Why was he looking at the other side? Anything interesting? ^^

Our opening ceremony gimmick

The sponsors were officiating the opening ceremony

Tada!!! Nice le...

Program booklet

Nametag

Souvenir for the participants. *I like the design*

It's me on a tree house!!! Cool!

Campsite view

Night view of campsite from the tree house

The other part of the campsite

There are more photos coming up in the slide show below. Enjoy!!

I'm Back!!

It has been almost one week since I updated my blog. But don't worry, more posts coming up on the Accounting Camp event and Dayao performance once I've settled with the photos. Meanwhile, be patient... =p

Read And You Will Know...

I came across an email and found that this one is meaningful so I want to share with everyone.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end.

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and colour of the world outside. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every colour and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.
It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window. The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'

Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.

Music Rocksz!!

The 3rd post for this year but this time is in happy mode!!^^
Actually I supposed to post it 2 days ago but the connection has failed me... aaarghh... Nvm, post it now is also the same... hehe... This was how it goes...


I just came back to my room after finished practising dance for DaYao. Real nice! I love it!



Last time I wanted to join the singer and dancer group for DaYao and went for audition. But I didn't succeed in singing and was only selected for dancing.



At first I was quite sad coz I prefer singing more than dancing. But later on when I really learnt dancing and performed on stage, the feeling was different. It was great!



Today, I realized that through dancing, I found my own pleasure and enjoyment. I feel happy! Even happier than singing. But don't get me wrong here, I still love singing.



I love MUSIC! Be it singing or dancing, I'm willing to sacrifice most of my time for music.



No matter how hard or how tiring it is, I will never give up my love for music.



I will keep on improving on my singing skills and also dancing skills. Hope that next year I get to join the singer group as well. ^^

What's Wrong With Me?!

Here comes the second post of mine for this year.

I'm feeling emo. Why?

Although I have been in UM for 1 semester and made quite many friends here but I don't feel the sense of belonging here.

Now it's the starting of my second semester in my first year studies in UM.

I'm not sad but I'm not happy either. Is hard to describe my feeling. I felt that there is a wall between me and my friends in UM. I'm like from a different channel from them. Sometimes I just can't fit into them.

Is it because I'm too sensitive and think too much?

Hmm... I don't know the answer. Maybe I think too much. But I hate this kind of feeling. I don't feel good. I don't feel nice.

Why I care so much? I mean, why want to bother so much about my friends?

Because friends are the most important people in my life after family. That is why, I CARE...

I feel like I have been left out by my friends.

And I think this problem came from myself. I need to examine myself.
What's wrong with me?

Am I not friendly enough?
Am I too cool? Or treated friends in a coldly manner?
Am I not helpful enough?
Did I talk rudely?
Have I accidentally hurt my friends' feeling while talking?
Am I too arrogant?
Am I hard to approach to?
Did I boast too much?
Do I possess all the bad characteristics that friends dislike?

If yes, can you please let me know? So that I can change. I'm willing to change, no matter how hard. To throw away all the bad characteristics and adopt the good ones.

Please tell me so. Whatever you dislike about me, just let me know. I will change. I don't want to be left out by friends.

Friends, maybe you might not know. But I really cherish each of you who have come into my life and show me the meaning of friends.

Maybe we meet less, maybe we talk less, maybe we sms less, maybe we contact less. But I will never forget anyone who has left footprints in my heart. Be it a deep one or a shallow one. Each one is important to me.

I'm grateful to have all of you in my life.

It's A New Year!!!

It's a new year. This is my first post for this year. Yes, it's 2009! Why am I not feeling anything special?

I think I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my joyful moment during holidays.

Sometimes I wish time can stop. But I know this is impossible. Time has to tick. Life has to grow.

I want to be a better person.

To family: I want to love you more. Care for you more. Respect you more. Speak politely to you. I want to take care of you.

To friends: I want to cherish you more. Care for you more. Respect you more. Speak less but listen more.

I want to live my life all out so that whenever I live this world, I will have no regrets. I promise to myself that I will live happily everyday starting from this moment because life is too short to be bothered by sadness. Whatever it is, I will overcome it. I will not complain anything because I'm glad my life is good enough compared to others in the other part of the world.

Have a nice day!!!^^

Choices

Life is all about making choices. To choose from alternatives given. Sometimes it is hard to decide. Sometimes you might worry that you make the wrong desicion. And decisions that have been made cannot turn back. So when deciding on something, we must think properly the consequences that follow after that. Which is more important and so on.

Today is the 1st day I came back to UM for 2nd semester of studies. And today is the day which has made me decide a lot and I'm really tired of it.

Firstly is whether to apply for remark for my previous exam papers. I didn't do quite well for 2 subjects and at first I thought not to bother about it but this morning when I reached my faculty and saw the notice for remark, suddenly something struck my mind and I decided to send for remark because this is the chance for me to get better grades although it is risky. It's a hard choice but since I have submitted the form, what I can do is to wait and hope.

Then came to course registration. At first I have already registered according to the subjects that we need to take. But my friends kept giving comments on what we should take this semester and why. Some said take this subject for this semester would be easier... bla, bla, bla... and so on. Then, I decided to take on their advice and change one course and add extra one course. But when I wanted to add and drop, I couldn't add any more subjects because my maximum credit hours is 18 hours. At first, I was quite troubled with this matter, but after that, I told myself, since I've registered earlier and whatever it is, we still need to take all the subject is just the matter of time. So I made up my mind to stick with my old time table. Whatever it is, I just need to work harder. That's all!

I joined dancing for a musical performance which will be held on 21 January 2009. Yesterday I had just attended for the first practice. Actually tonight suppose to have another practice but the coach is sick so it is cancelled. I thought of going back to home town this weekend because coming weeks I will not be free to go back anymore till CNY. However, there will be dancing practice too this weekend. So now the problem that is troubling me is whether to go back home or stay in UM. Can you give me advice?

Haiz...

My Xmas Gfit

Last week, I received a very special Xmas gift from my best friend, Tse Hwei. Below is the card she made for me.

Why I said special because it is hand made by her. Since young till now, I knew her as a blur queen who lacks of sense of direction and also doesn't know what's happening around except for her talent in music. To my surprise, she sewed this piece of picture for my Xmas gift! I really can't believe it because she doesn't know how to sew! And yet she learnt how to sew and sewed it for me. I'm so touched...

She sewed it pretty well for a beginner. Even I, myself also don't know how to sew this. Together with this lovely piece is a photo frame that she bought for me too because she thought I could put in her sewing in this frame. "Don't think that it can't fit, it fits in well with a little adjustment." ^^

Thank you so much!