They take care of us…

Valentine’s Day?

Is it so important? I admit it’s a special and memorable day and it should be made special by both parties. But…

is it worth the effort when one party is unhappy? Uncomfortable? Uneasy? Inconvenient? Worried for the other partner?

The most important thing of all is the existence of love. The essence of loving your partner and not just a celebration of another special day.

P/S: Even if you dislike my opinion, you shouldn’t have talked to me that way. Disappointed.

512

5.12.2011 –> Typically normal date, but it has become a special date for me. Thanks dar… ^^

I don’t want a boyfriend, I need a real man…

Sometimes when I watched those young adults love drama series, I really admire the leading actress and I do wish I could be like her in reality. Having someone to love you so deeply that he’s willing to sacrifice for you. Of course not all the things in the drama are realistic. However, there are certain things which are possible in life. I’ve seen a lot of couples around me and I know many things are possible. It’s a matter of will.

I don’t demand much but there is a certain extent of expectation that I wish I could receive from my loved one.

I don’t need a rich man who could buy me expensive things or bring me for fine dining all the time…

I don’t need a good looking man…

I don’t need a talented man…

I don’t need a super smart man…

I don’t need a very tall man…

I don’t need a very fit man…

But what I need is…

someone who is very caring. Someone who could at least give me a few minutes call every night just to talk to me to find out what I’ve gone through for the day just to make sure that I’m alright.

someone who is very caring that when I have no time to eat or when I don’t feel like eating, he will find his way to feed me. Just like when I get back home after every out station, he could at least come and find me just to bring me out to eat.

someone who is very caring that he will do whatever it takes to understand me more. Read my blog and follow me in FB for my every updates.

someone who is very caring that he will be by my side whenever I need him without me telling him so.

Is that so hard?

I thought I can hold myself back once I’ve made my mind clear but it’s tough. I think I’ve fall for you. After 5 years of refraining myself from falling in love, I fail this time.

简单爱

见到你真的很开心。虽然我知道我们没有什么可能可以在一起，可是偶尔见面，喝茶，聊聊天，这样也足够了。原来幸福可以是那么简单的。=)

This is so right!

Conflicting

I always told myself not to be too serious in anything especially when it comes to love. I’m not saying that we should not be committed to a relationship, but we should have a limit of seriousness to it. Sometimes taking it too seriously would only hurt yourself more. I admit I’m a playful person but I’m very loyal. But as I grow older and meet more different kinds of people, my mindset started to change. Now, I don’t mind to get involved in a relationship even though I know the ending might not be a happy ending. Sounds silly right? Being a playful girl, I really don’t mind to try anything while I’m still young. I wouldn’t want to regret later on in life for not giving something a try.

 

But at the same time I realize…

 

“曾淑铃，妳玩不起”

S.H.I.T.

我喜欢上一个“不是3岁小孩子”的人。

Sensei

Looks like I’ve abandoned this blog for quite some time. Well, I just didn’t have much inspiration on what to write. When I read one of my friends’ post, I started asking myself, “Am I the kind of person who can’t do anything at all during exam besides studying?” I wouldn’t want to be that kind of person.

Anyway, I’m not going to write anything about motivation, exams, studies, bla…bla…bla… Today, I just want to focus on a very special person which I never thought that I would post it up but somehow I feel that I need to write it down because I want this memory to remain in my mind forever.

If you somehow know a little bit of Japanese language, I think you can guess who is this special person that I’m referring to. He’s none other than my beloved lecturer.

If you know me and him as well, I’m sure you’d know why he is special to me. There is no other lecturer like him who has impressed and inspired me so much before! I like him! In fact, I think I love him! =p

I’m fascinated by the way he carries himself, his politeness, his well-mannered attitude and his SMILE! I’m mesmerized by his knowledge, skills and talents! I’ve never admired anyone so much like him before.

Sometimes I really wonder, have I really fallen in love with him?

 

I think most of you would be stunned just like the girl above. Haha… Don’t get me wrong. I’m not that kind of person who is specifically fond of elderly man. But he is really special. He’s not just an elderly man. He is the MAN! As in the best person who can be a role model to anyone.

I don’t really care about the age so much when it comes to love. And so far, no man like him has ever captured my attention so much before.

My Passion Is Back!

Yup! That’s right! If you’ve followed me, you would know that I was not in a good condition during December because back then I lost my passion in almost everything. Now it has come back to me. =)

I’m happy that I started liking the things I do now even more than before. I appreciate every moment I have whenever I’m involved in it.

My passion is growing for…

DANCING!

SINGING!

PLAYING MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS!

BLOGGING!

SWIMMING! (Though I still don’t know how to swim but I want to learn so much!)

ALL THE THINGS I’M DOING!

When you like the things you do, that is HAPPINESS!

Daddy

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice.

 

When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch
certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house.

When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was becoming. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste.

When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You
thanked him by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deep he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him. You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART. Love him and let him feel be loved before it’s too late.

Love Is Scary!

It can blind someone's eyes - TOTALLY!

It can make someone become OVER possessive!

It can even KILL someone - Commit suicide.

Don't you think is scary?

I'm fear of love. At this moment you might rejoice for someone's new relationship and at the next moment you might be sadden by someone's break up.

Recently, I heard too much of love stories from my close friends. Happy and sad ones. A few are in love, starting new relationship. A few just broke up and ended up with tears. Some broke up but got back again.

What is LOVE? I feel like it's being abused. It's being treated like clothes by people. They like it, they wear. They don't like it, they throw away.

Love should be something pure and innocent. Love should be something generous. Love should be something great and powerful.

Love shouldn't be something suffering. Love shouldn't be something sad. Love shouldn't be something selfish.

If you treat it like clothes, that's not love. That's just a childish mindset of yours who have wrong thoughts of the true meaning of love. WAKE UP!

不知不觉。。。

。。。我已经爱上孙燕姿10年了。

I was trying to relax myself after studying and listened to some of her old songs. Then I realized it has been 10 years since I first started to like her. It means she has grown from a young adult to a middle aged adult and I have grown from a teenager to a young adult. I can't believe time passes so fast. In a blink of an eye, I have grown up and her songs have accompanied me for 10 years. Here are the memories of her theme songs from every album. Each song represent a different stage of my life.

There are other songs which are nice from all of her 11 albums. I will post some of them soon. ^^

Thank You For The Broken Heart

Sometimes breaking up doesn't mean bad ending.

It means a beginning to a new journey.

爱上了林宇中

You can guess that this post will be about Rynn Lim. I went to his 签唱会 yesterday at Dataran Pahlawan, Melaka. I really don't know how to describe my feeling at that moment. I was very happy to see him in person. That happiness was indescribable. Although I'm not a big fan of his, I still like him very much and admire his talent in song composing. I listen to many songs by variety of singers but so far I truly only adore 4 of those artists from chinese music industry. They are Stefanie 孙燕姿, Rynn 林宇中, Jacky 张学友 and Jing 张芸京.

Though I was happy to see him yesterday, I was upset too when I saw the response from the public. There wasn't many people attended. I guess the publicity of his appearance in Malacca has not been widely spread. Even though my highest admiration is for Stefanie Sun, somehow I feel closer to Rynn Lim. Maybe partly because he is my senior from 摇篮手 and also my cousin's friend. Sometimes I really sympathize him. Becoming a local artist ain't that easy. You may see them living gloriously, but you don't know how they really live and feel deep within their heart. They are also normal human beings like us and their income based solely on us, the public.

I bought his album {Dearest Bride} and went to get his signature. I managed to talk him and invited him to come and watch Yao Lan Shou Live Concert next year. This is an annual concert for YLS held in UM and usually many local music producers and composers would attend. Rynn Lim and 李志清 have attended for the previous performance which was held on 24 February 2010.

Yesterday wasn't the first time for me to meet him in person and get his signature. When he released his 1st album, I went to support his mini concert and got his signature too. So in total, I have 2 of his original albums with his signature on them.

I didn't need to wait long in the queue for his autograph. Everything moved so fast and smooth. Like I said, there wasn't many people too. I wonder how would he feel seeing the response turned out to be like this.

There was a short game session and 3 people were being selected up. Their task was to sing his song, that's all. Easy, right? But I didn't raise my hand up to be selected because I don't really know his new songs well. Aiks... Miss it!

After the event, I went to yam cha with my friends. We went to De Rice Cafe located near Pure Bar Area. I ordered this!

Haha!! Kawaiidesu! To wind up this post of mine, I want to say "I love you, Rynn!"

Understanding

I know no one is perfect in this world including me. Therefore, no one can ever satisfy his or her partner fully in a relationship. But when you are in a relationship, I think you must at least be committed to it and try to understand your partner when your relationship is still fresh.

Understanding takes time but it's not impossible. If you understand someone, without even uttering a word, you'd know what's in her or his mind. It'd be sad to hear or see my friend who gets involved in such situation. I wanted to help so much but I don't know how.

My advice to everyone is, if you are not ready to commit yourself to a relationship, don't start one. And if you start one, be committed! What's the point of loving your partner when you don't even care to know her more?

Love.Love.Love

I received a sms from my best friend. It was a normal chatting-sms just to keep in touch with each other. Then she told me some good news! Two good friends from our gang have just been indulged in love. Haha... They found themselves a gf. I'm happy for them. ^^

The next question which appeared in my mind was - When will be my turn?

I started questioning myself - Am I not good enough?

Or was it that in my subconscious mind I'm not ready for a relationship?

I don't have the answer. I'm not desperate for one but yet I admire those who have.

Come to think of it, so far I have never really fallen in love with anyone. But I do admire certain people. Admire doesn't equal to love, right?

At certain times, I would really miss someone so much. Many people often suffer from love because they can't get to be with the person they love. A question was raised in my mind again -

Why when we love someone, we must be together with him/her?

Why must we possess him/her?

Why must we feel that he/she belongs to us?

When you love someone and yet you can't be with that person, does it mean you have lost him/her? No. He/She would still be in this world. And you still get to meet him/her. So why suffer?

I've come to realize this when I started thinking deeply.

I enjoy hanging out with the person I love, but I don't necessary need to possess him/her.

I enjoy talking to the person I love, but I don't necessary need to be attached to him/her.

I enjoy loving the person as it is, but I don't necessary need to let him/her know.

It might sound weird to you, but that's how I think. You see, when you are so obsessed to be with someone you love but you can't, then you'd feel sad. This feeling of sadness of not getting what you desire would cause you to suffer. That's what happening to most of the people now in love life.

Love should be a happy thing. It's the most powerful element of all. If love causes sadness, then why love?

This comes back to my thoughts which I mentioned above. If I love someone, I'm satisfied just by knowing he/she is living happily. And knowing that I can comfort them when they need me.

我还是理智的

当我的好朋友问我，“你觉得你和他有可能吗?”

我说，“没有”

但，我心里却很希望我们是有可能的。

Just now...

...I received a message, "Happy Valentine".

What does this mean?

You are always confusing me and giving me hope.

我很辛苦。