I'm Back!!

It has been almost one week since I updated my blog. But don't worry, more posts coming up on the Accounting Camp event and Dayao performance once I've settled with the photos. Meanwhile, be patient... =p

Read And You Will Know...

I came across an email and found that this one is meaningful so I want to share with everyone.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end.

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and colour of the world outside. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every colour and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.
It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window. The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'

Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.

Music Rocksz!!

The 3rd post for this year but this time is in happy mode!!^^
Actually I supposed to post it 2 days ago but the connection has failed me... aaarghh... Nvm, post it now is also the same... hehe... This was how it goes...


I just came back to my room after finished practising dance for DaYao. Real nice! I love it!



Last time I wanted to join the singer and dancer group for DaYao and went for audition. But I didn't succeed in singing and was only selected for dancing.



At first I was quite sad coz I prefer singing more than dancing. But later on when I really learnt dancing and performed on stage, the feeling was different. It was great!



Today, I realized that through dancing, I found my own pleasure and enjoyment. I feel happy! Even happier than singing. But don't get me wrong here, I still love singing.



I love MUSIC! Be it singing or dancing, I'm willing to sacrifice most of my time for music.



No matter how hard or how tiring it is, I will never give up my love for music.



I will keep on improving on my singing skills and also dancing skills. Hope that next year I get to join the singer group as well. ^^

What's Wrong With Me?!

Here comes the second post of mine for this year.

I'm feeling emo. Why?

Although I have been in UM for 1 semester and made quite many friends here but I don't feel the sense of belonging here.

Now it's the starting of my second semester in my first year studies in UM.

I'm not sad but I'm not happy either. Is hard to describe my feeling. I felt that there is a wall between me and my friends in UM. I'm like from a different channel from them. Sometimes I just can't fit into them.

Is it because I'm too sensitive and think too much?

Hmm... I don't know the answer. Maybe I think too much. But I hate this kind of feeling. I don't feel good. I don't feel nice.

Why I care so much? I mean, why want to bother so much about my friends?

Because friends are the most important people in my life after family. That is why, I CARE...

I feel like I have been left out by my friends.

And I think this problem came from myself. I need to examine myself.
What's wrong with me?

Am I not friendly enough?
Am I too cool? Or treated friends in a coldly manner?
Am I not helpful enough?
Did I talk rudely?
Have I accidentally hurt my friends' feeling while talking?
Am I too arrogant?
Am I hard to approach to?
Did I boast too much?
Do I possess all the bad characteristics that friends dislike?

If yes, can you please let me know? So that I can change. I'm willing to change, no matter how hard. To throw away all the bad characteristics and adopt the good ones.

Please tell me so. Whatever you dislike about me, just let me know. I will change. I don't want to be left out by friends.

Friends, maybe you might not know. But I really cherish each of you who have come into my life and show me the meaning of friends.

Maybe we meet less, maybe we talk less, maybe we sms less, maybe we contact less. But I will never forget anyone who has left footprints in my heart. Be it a deep one or a shallow one. Each one is important to me.

I'm grateful to have all of you in my life.

It's A New Year!!!

It's a new year. This is my first post for this year. Yes, it's 2009! Why am I not feeling anything special?

I think I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my joyful moment during holidays.

Sometimes I wish time can stop. But I know this is impossible. Time has to tick. Life has to grow.

I want to be a better person.

To family: I want to love you more. Care for you more. Respect you more. Speak politely to you. I want to take care of you.

To friends: I want to cherish you more. Care for you more. Respect you more. Speak less but listen more.

I want to live my life all out so that whenever I live this world, I will have no regrets. I promise to myself that I will live happily everyday starting from this moment because life is too short to be bothered by sadness. Whatever it is, I will overcome it. I will not complain anything because I'm glad my life is good enough compared to others in the other part of the world.

Have a nice day!!!^^

Choices

Life is all about making choices. To choose from alternatives given. Sometimes it is hard to decide. Sometimes you might worry that you make the wrong desicion. And decisions that have been made cannot turn back. So when deciding on something, we must think properly the consequences that follow after that. Which is more important and so on.

Today is the 1st day I came back to UM for 2nd semester of studies. And today is the day which has made me decide a lot and I'm really tired of it.

Firstly is whether to apply for remark for my previous exam papers. I didn't do quite well for 2 subjects and at first I thought not to bother about it but this morning when I reached my faculty and saw the notice for remark, suddenly something struck my mind and I decided to send for remark because this is the chance for me to get better grades although it is risky. It's a hard choice but since I have submitted the form, what I can do is to wait and hope.

Then came to course registration. At first I have already registered according to the subjects that we need to take. But my friends kept giving comments on what we should take this semester and why. Some said take this subject for this semester would be easier... bla, bla, bla... and so on. Then, I decided to take on their advice and change one course and add extra one course. But when I wanted to add and drop, I couldn't add any more subjects because my maximum credit hours is 18 hours. At first, I was quite troubled with this matter, but after that, I told myself, since I've registered earlier and whatever it is, we still need to take all the subject is just the matter of time. So I made up my mind to stick with my old time table. Whatever it is, I just need to work harder. That's all!

I joined dancing for a musical performance which will be held on 21 January 2009. Yesterday I had just attended for the first practice. Actually tonight suppose to have another practice but the coach is sick so it is cancelled. I thought of going back to home town this weekend because coming weeks I will not be free to go back anymore till CNY. However, there will be dancing practice too this weekend. So now the problem that is troubling me is whether to go back home or stay in UM. Can you give me advice?

Haiz...

My Xmas Gfit

Last week, I received a very special Xmas gift from my best friend, Tse Hwei. Below is the card she made for me.

Why I said special because it is hand made by her. Since young till now, I knew her as a blur queen who lacks of sense of direction and also doesn't know what's happening around except for her talent in music. To my surprise, she sewed this piece of picture for my Xmas gift! I really can't believe it because she doesn't know how to sew! And yet she learnt how to sew and sewed it for me. I'm so touched...

She sewed it pretty well for a beginner. Even I, myself also don't know how to sew this. Together with this lovely piece is a photo frame that she bought for me too because she thought I could put in her sewing in this frame. "Don't think that it can't fit, it fits in well with a little adjustment." ^^

Thank you so much!

Emptiness

I'm feeling empty. I'm feeling lonely. The emptiness within me is hard to describe. I don't know how to explain this feeling. It's weird. Why am I feeling this way? I keep asking myself the same question over and over again. But I can't seem to find an answer to it.

I have friends and family who would always be there for me when I need them. I am happy with my life now because I got to spend my time with friends and family. I appreciate them a lot, but still why am I feeling empty? I feel like lacking of something. But I don't know what. What can I fill in to make my heart full?

Is it because of love? But all this while I'm used to being single and I feel happy with my single life. As long as my friends and family are there, I'm already very grateful.

I hate this feeling of emptiness! It makes me sad and gloomy. Although I have had great time with my friends and family during this holiday, but I still feel lack of something. What is it?

There are so many things kept within myself that I wanted to find someone to share with. I know I can share with my best friends or my close family members. But they have their own lives. They have their own problems. They have their own things to do. I'm not the only one with this feeling. Maybe they have too, and feel just like the way I feel.

That is why I do not want to burden them with my matters anymore. So who should I seek?? Maybe I'm tired of being single. I need someone to talk to. I need someone who can share with me.

But it's not easy to find that someone. I hope that someone will appear in my life soon.

Friend's Birthday Celebration

This was the second time I went to KTV since holiday and with the same gang of friends again to celebrate a friend's birthday. If you have read my previous post, you should've known the highly rated 'singer', Lynn. This time I had the chance to record her singing and you can see why I said she is highly rated. Hehe...

Happy 20th B'day!!

Say cheese!!

Traditional game - Bite the candle out

Another high ranked 'singer'

This is Lynn!

Because Of You

The english version of Y2J

Ferris Wheel

Looking at the title, you must have thought, "Ya, ferris wheel... so? What's so nice about it?" Some of you might think that it's just a machine bringing us go up and down in a circle to amuse the passengers... or shall I say kids.

But to me, it is totally a different meaning. Ferris wheel is not just a machine or something for you to ride in. It's more than that. It moves in a circle. Do you know why?

To me, it represents our lives. It's a never ending cycle, never ending journey until the time the ferris wheel stops moving, when our lives stop the journey on earth.

When it's at the bottom, that's the time when you feel down. Your life seems to face with many problems. You feel like just giving up and you feel that it's hard to overcome your problems. You don't know what to do and you don't know how to do it. You don't know who to find. You feel like you are alone. This is the hardest part in our lives.

But if you have the will, you will continue non-stop to climb up. This is when the ferris wheel moves up. At this time you might feel hard as the climbing process is not easy. Don't be afraid to go on... because you are not alone. Seek your family and friends and you will realize how much they care for you. With their support, you go through it. When you start to see the beautiful scenery that surrounds you as the ferris wheel moves up, you will be more determined to reach to the highest peak.

Now, you have survived through all the obstacles and reach the top. You feel like you are on top of the world. The beautiful view of the world below you feels great. You feel like you have all the things you wanted. You are satisfied with your life. No regret. This is the happiest moment in your life. The glory in your life. You feel like staying on top forever and never wish to go down.

But this is life. This is the truth. As time passes by, you become older. Activites are reduced, you retire. This is the time you feel like you want to rest, have a peaceful life. The ferris wheel starts to move down. You do not wish to fight for glory any longer. You have passed through it before and now you just want to settle down peacefully. The scenery around you still looks beautiful. You enjoy the moment you are having now. You feel calm.

Now the ferris wheel is going to stop soon. It's going to reach the bottom. You know your life is coming to an end. You know your journey is going to end because you have reached the place. Although it's sad having to leave the ferris wheel knowing that you can no longer view the beautiful scenery. But you have ride through it once. You know how it feels. You have experienced it. You have no regret. You have nothing to hold you back. You have nothing left undone. The ferris wheel reaches the destination. It's time to say goodbye. You leave without any hesitation because you know this is LIFE'S JOURNEY.


Now you know why ferris wheel is meaningful to me? It represents my life. Life is not easy. But we only live life once. So live your life to the fullest while you can. Be bold to overcome all the problems and strive to reach to the top. Dream and make your dreams realize. Do not hesitate, do not fear. Fight for your goal. Only this then you will have no regret living in this world. Then when it's time to leave this world, you will have no regret. Because you know you have gone through all the things you have wanted before. There's nothing to hold you back. You leave in peace. This is life. You have the choice to decide on your life whether to ride in a ferris wheel or never ride it and stay at the bottom forever without even have the chance to look at the beautiful scenery.

The pictures above were taken by me showing the changes of the beautiful colours of a ferris wheel. Hope you enjoy this post.