Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Post Mortem

Just now went for 校创 post mortem. There were many things in my mind that I wanted to raise out before this. But when it was my turn to share, I didn't utter much. (Juniors: The so-called fierce senior didn't scold us for the 1st time!)


Yup. I didn't scold them this time. During the past few weeks whenever they had meetings, I would screwed them on the way they work in organizing activities. Messy, unprepared, last minute, blur and all the weaknesses an organizer shouldn't have were clearly portrayed by them. How can I stand all these?? Maybe I have been involved much in my faculty's activities which were carried out effectively and efficiently which makes me can't stand the way they do their work.

Come back to the main issue. Why this time I didn't scold them despite all the messiness and wrongdoings during the event?

I believed they are big enough to know their own mistakes. I believed even if I talk a lot, it is not going to enter their brains. I believed other seniors would have almost the same comments. I believed most of the post mortem carried out wouldn't have strong impact or improvement for the future event. I believed it's better to prevent and solve the problems prior to the event rather than crying over spilt milk.

That's why...

Monday, October 19, 2009

Turn Left? Turn Right?

Balance sheet, EPS, solvency, assets, liabilities, tax, liquidity, depreciation, cash flow statements, FRS, IRB, public ruling, audit, (continued)...........................................................................!!!!!!!!!


AM I GOING TO FACE THIS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE??

I DOUBT THAT!

Please show me the way...


Malacca Camp

Just came back to UM yesterday noon. Final exam is just in two weeks time and I don't know why am I still blogging here.

But I guess I'm trying to escape from reality that exam is just around the corner.

Anyway, just came back from 大摇 exec meeting just now. It feels nice when all of us work together for one purpose and we are just like a big family.

The theme for next year 大摇 is I~Infinity. We are going to have a Malacca Camp from 21-23 November. And we are going to perform at Jonker on 22 November (Sunday) at 7.30pm. It's an unplugged band performance. Hope all of you who will be in Malacca at that time can come and support us. ^^






Sunday, October 18, 2009

梦想成真?



只要我们相信

为什么?


不知道要写什么
很多话要说 却说不出来
很多感想 不知道如何分享
心情很乱
头脑一片空白

有时候觉得自己没有一样是好的
但很多人总是觉得我什么都好
不知道要高兴还是要丧心

突然很想用华语来写出我的心情
认识我的人可能会觉得很奇怪
为什么我会写华语呢?
我虽然不是很会用手写华语
可是我会看
我会拼音 所以我就会type出来咯。。。

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Finally Back Home...

Yes, I'm back home! It feels so nice to be home even though is only for 1 day++. Left 2 weeks to final exam. Haven't started anything yet.


Clueless... Don't know where to begin...

Must work hard in these 2 weeks!

Friday, October 16, 2009

The Secret Revealed


Regarding the previous post, I forgot to say something. Actually during last year Xiao Chuang, I have thought to myself before that I'm going to write a song and submit it in the coming Xiao Chuang which is this year which has just passed yesterday. I was determined at that time.

But this year just when Xiao Chuang was around the corner, I only have a song with me and I didn't plan to submit it in the 1st place. Due to lesser song submission this year compared to last year, Yuan Teng asked me to submit and said she would write the lyrics for me. And then the story continued like what I've written in previous posts.

I don't know if you have read a book on "The Secret". In this book, it explained about Law of Attraction. To simplify it, it says that whatever we think of and if we want it and believe we can get it just by the thoughts of our mind, we can finally receive what we want. Be who we want to be. Achieve what we want. Universe will react with our thoughts, just like a magnetic field.

I've tried a few times thinking of something that I want, and it really worked out. However, there were times when it failed.

In this case, for the song competition, I guessed the Universe has answered to my thoughts which were being asked last year.

And because of this, I will do my best in everything, think positively, have faith.

Out of Expectation!

Finally, the song composing competition has just ended yesterday. Out of my expectation, my song got 3rd place.


I don't know want to feel happy or sad. But I just feel I don't deserve it. My song is just a very normal song. Too normal even for a beginner. Is not something special. I can't find any winning point in it.

When submitting my song for preliminary round, I never expect to enter final. And when I knew it entered final, I was happy enough. Just wanted to perform it well in final and never, NEVER even think of getting any prize for this final.

There are so many other songs in final which are better than mine. I just really can't figure out why.

But anyway, this prize does not belong to me alone. Without lyrics, it wouldn't be a song. Without singer, it wouldn't be heard. Without music arrangement, it wouldn't be performed out.

And so I want to say a million thanks to Yuan Teng for writing the lyrics for me, Rachel for singing the song for me, and Stephen for arranging and playing the guitar for me.

And actually after I composed the melody, Yuan Teng modified some blunt tones of mine into more rounded melody.

And I feel that my melody is not original in a sense that I feel like I was imitating many other songs and combined the melody into one and then modified a bit, then became my own song. @@

That's why I don't deserve the prize. I need to learn more. And seriously, although I was happy getting the prize, but I feel more guilty than happy.

There's still a long way for me to go in music path...

Sunday, October 11, 2009

最后。。。祝我们快乐

作曲(Composer): Stef

作词(Lyricist): Yuan Teng

最后。。。祝我们快乐

嘿 这次请你听我说
有些困惑 我一直都等不到结果
选择了 放弃的人是我
选择了 不管怕不怕 寂寞

不该出现的难过
不该暗自去猜测你在想什么
我知道 我其实想太多
我知道 我们两都有错
关于这决定 就让我来做

*相信你会明白的
没有爱了 在继续只是附和
没有什么舍不得
做彼此生命的过客

相信你会明白的
有些伤痕 太深不能愈合
我们经过的每一刻
都反复记录着
爱情里的挫折

如果我没有说
只能沉默一拖再拖
不如告一段落
让我们都好过

相信你会明白的
没有爱了 虚有其白的空壳
尽管会有些舍不得
但也许停在这 对我们都好呢

在最后这刻想说
祝我们都快乐

Friday, October 9, 2009

I want to go home...

How long have I not been back home? About 2 weeks. And I will only go back after another 2 weeks. Though 2 weeks or 1 month seems like a 'short' period, but it's long for me especially when I don't get to see my family and how's their condition now. I really miss them.


Sometimes I wonder, what's my purpose in life? What's my purpose of living? I can't seem to find the answer. Humans live and die. It's like a cycle. I'm glad and thankful that my family and I are still alive today. But sometimes the fear of losing someone would somehow plays in my mind. I'm scared.


I've been spending lesser time with my family nowadays. I've been occupied by other things in university like studies and activities. Is this worth? My cousin just called me just now. She told me that my aunt (my secondary mother) is not feeling well recently. Then only I realized I have not been calling home since I was back to UM. *guilty*

I called my aunt just now to ask how is she. All she said to me was to take good care of myself. I know she really cares for me. After we hang up, I cried. I don't know why tears suddenly just burst out like that. I think I'm too emotional recently. Serious. I have to learn to control.

My life's journey is not easy, I know...