What's in my mind?

I miss the good old days...

The Life of A 2nd Year Student

Just finished with Charity Fair 2009. Left two more visits to go before Charity Project 2009 officially ends. Feel like half of the burden has been removed from my back. It is so much lighter than before. =) Though becoming a programme head is stressful and not easy, I learnt a lot.

But my activities just didn't stop here. Now have to focus on MASC. A much bigger event, national level. Feel excited though now is the busiest time for us, publicity team. We are happy to get participation from students from all over Malaysia. =)

MASC is not the only one. On the other hand, I have a concert to organize. It's called DAYAO. The biggest chinese community event in UM after PTUM. So, what type of concert is this? All songs that will be performed in this concert are composed by UM students. It's a platform to discover talented students, a chance for them to perform. It will be held next year February, but the preparation has started since early this semester. This coming DAYAO's theme is I~Infinity. We open this concert to everyone who is interested to watch! =)

Don't Worry

I'm fine.

Pain in the heart

I'm hurt!

I don't know how to describe this...

Since 2 days ago, my room mate started not talking to me. I don't know what happen.

I asked her, she was reluctant to answer.

Then I thought it is better for me to remain silent.

Until now, she's still isn't talking to me.

And at this hour, she's reluctant to come back room.

Dear SE: I don't know what I've done, but if you don't like to talk to me, it's fine. If you think staying in the same room will make you feel uneasy, then it's fine. You can choose another friend to be your room mate. You decide. I will respect every decision of yours.

Dream

Just now went to take nap because I was tired. When I woke up I have a strong feeling of wanting to blog. Know why? I had a dream.

Though it's normal for me to dream once a while, but usually my dreams were blurry and I can't really remember what I've dreamt of. Only certain times I can remember the story line and characters in my dreams.

Back to the dream just now, I could remember clearly what and who was in. Usually if I dreamt of someone, it means that the person is special to me. This time is the same. I dreamt of this girl whom I just knew not long ago. I've never met her before till few days ago I coincidentally saw her in a place.

Conclusion? I've no idea what I want to express. Just feel like writing. =p

Fate (Part 2)

This one week break of mine has really made me encountered many things and many people. Again it's all FATE.

When I was browsing my Facebook just now, I happened to came across my very old friend, whom I've known since primary Standard 3. (WOW! That's so loooooooooonnnnnngggggggg ago)

Yes! It's primary Standard 3, when I was around 9 years old. When I was in primary, I admired her a lot. Not because of her talent, outlook or whatsoever, but because of her personality. She was nice to be with.

Recently just found her and added her in Facebook. In fact, now I'm chatting with her and I'm still fond of her. After so long, she's still the same old person whom I admired before.

And for your information, she's a Malay. In Malaysia, when we talk about race, it's a sensitive issue. But actually in the first place, what is it to be sensitive about?

It's because all the media and so called "leaders" keep on mentioning this matter, then it became an issue. If they don't give rise to this matter, I think we would be living in a more harmony environment.

Children don't know what is race. But they are being brought up to know.

My main point is don't be easily influenced by others. Think critically. The state of mind is all psychological.

Fate

Yesterday chatted with my blog-mate, Penthius. It was the first time for us to chat after we've been visiting each other's blogs for quite a while.

I do believe in fate. We have never met each other before and 2 days ago I saw her from far in DP. I thought to myself, "This girl looks familiar. Is it Penthius?"

After yesterday's conversation, we finally verified that we were looking at the right person. Lol... What a coincidence!

Although both of us are from Malacca and Malacca is not a BIG city, nevertheless, getting to meet someone you've never even thought of would meet, is something surprising.

And this incident made me even believe more in fate.

Why best friends can be best friends? Of course they must 1st be fated to know each other, where likeness pull them together, then only we would have what we called, True Friends.

So actually what I'm trying to say is don't take things for granted. Cherish all the people around you. Especially those you love. They are just like gifts given to you by God.

No words to describe...

Just now went through very emotional situation. Quarrelled with close friend, both of us are stressed. Both have own opinions.

I was so hurt. She was hurt too. Both made mistakes.

I apologized to her. She felt sorry for me too.

Luckily we managed to amend the situation. I could not imagine what would happen if it get worse.

These few weeks, I admit that I was very emotional and irrational. For those friends whom I've treated coldly, I'm sorry. I really didn't mean it.

I have always been stable all this while regarding emotion. But this semester, I really don't know why.

I think I should go for a walk alone to calm down.

And to those friends who have been staying beside me all this while, THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Teardrops on me...

When my seniors told me that the last year Programme Department Head of Charity Project cried when carrying out her duty, I could not feel how she felt.

Now, I can feel that. Stressed!

I always thought I'm a tough person, but this time I was wrong.

Uncontrollable, I broke down into tears just all of a sudden.

Everything comes to me at the same time.

Then only I realized, I'm weak.

It's good that I'm being tested now. At least I know what are my weaknesses.

I still have long way to go. Success does not come easily.