Many things to say... Don't know where to begin...

Life is so unpredictable...

Yeah... I admit that these few days my emotion isn't that stable...

Why...?

你觉得呢？

原来。。。

。。。是我自己把它搞得那么复杂。

Humans are complicated...

and I am complicated too!

I'm feeling weird on myself. Serious! I don't know why I'm feeling that way but I just don't feel right. In other words, I think I'm emo-ing now... >_<

Arrrrggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate this kind of feeling! It just upset me.

Hmm... It's complicated when I don't even know...

what I want?

what I'm thinking?

what's in mind?

what I'm putting myself into?

where I'm heading to?

why am I behaving this way?

why I can't get myself right?

why I'm so weak in principle?

how am I going through it?

..........................

Have you ever felt this way?

I went for MAK (Malam Anugerah Kurshiah) yesterday night. It's an annual dinner for my hostel. All the residents of the hostel are obliged to pay RM100 per person even if we don't wish to attend. Since it's already charged in our fees, I might as well go (not to waste the RM100).

Though it's not an event which I love to attend, I had fun during the dinner taking photos with friends. Human nature especially girls just love to SS. Haha...

I'm not uploading any photo here coz the connection is slow. Maybe will upload some day later.

I think I sudah tua... Last time, I very "zi lian" (means like to take photo of myself a lot). Now, lazy d... Maybe it's a sign that I'm no longer teenager, but young adult... I doubt if myself is still young... Since I recovered from the last serious sickness, I really felt that I'm old d...

I think it's time...

To rest...

Life is just so simple...

These few days went out for dinner with Hwei. On Monday we went to Eat & Run in Tropicana Mall and yesterday we went to Piccadilly. So bahagia!!! ^^ Haha... I seldom go out to eat when I'm in UM and facing those same food everyday, you know la... where got appetite to eat, right?

This week can say is the week I've eaten the most nice food since I'm back to UM this semester. Wakaka... Last time I was always busy with activities and meetings, so seldom got the time to hang out with friends and even have a proper dinner. Now, only left one last project, Accounting Night. Then, I'm done!! Finally I can retire!!

Starting from next semester, I want to focus more on self-development. I want to learn up some skills. I want to get involve with more activities that are on performance basis, not management/organizing basis anymore. Hope my dreams would come true... ^^

P/S: Thanks, Hwei! ^^

Busy Month

These 2 weeks my room mates are busy with their faculty's project as both of them are the high executives for this project. I talk less with them. Somehow I feel that our bond this year is not as strong as last year. Maybe we've changed. We interact lesser. Sometimes we don't even talk to one another. Feels like there's a gap between us.

I really cherish them as friends. But a hand that claps won't make the sound. No matter how hard is it to maintain the friendship, I will never give up even to the extend that I need to sacrifice.

I just hope our friendship will get stronger and better just like last year. Perhaps this is the last year that I'm going to stay with them. And when we've moved out later on, it'll be harder for us to gather. I just hope this friendship will last.

Now I know...

why I always said UM is like a prison for me. I don't like studying. Ya, it's true. Believe your eyes. Believe what you've read. It's not that I dislike UM. I just dislike the fact that I need to study and the reason is for? To get a so called certificate which is made of paper (maybe slightly thicker than normal paper).

What's my purpose in life? Somehow in the middle of my journey, I would always get off track. I just came back from rehearsal for YLS Live Concert 2010. At that point of time, I suddenly recalled back what do I actually really like and want.

In my previous post (forgot which one d), I said that I like to perform on stage. I never forget this and it will always be my dream to be one of the performers be it singer, musician, dancer, emcee or even actor. I just love to perform. Reason: I like to be in the center of attraction. Yes, I admit that I love the feeling when I've done something that entertain others and they appreciate my effort for it and applause is given to me. This is what I long for. It's not that I want to show off my talent or whatsoever (I don't even have any talent). It's just that I enjoy interacting with people and I love music. Music is my soul!

Some of you might think that I'm just being vain or ego or whatever words you could think of for being a person who desires for people's attention. That's my nature. But this doesn't mean that I don't care about others at all. This just means that my world is not in the accounting field. And why the heck am I taking up accountancy now?!?

I take for the sake of reality. Not everyone can be successful in the entertainment world. This is a fact. I need a secure job for a secure future. This is also a fact. Thus, I don't need to explain further, you know why.

Two more years to go in UM. I must make the most out of these 2 years. This is a promise I made to myself. I'm sad for not being able to perform this year. This is something I regretted and I will never let this happen to me again. I will grab every chance I have from now on to attain my dream.

CNY

Super duper busy...

Super duper tired...

Super duper happy!

Going back to 'prison' soon... super duper sad...

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