The First Step

The story goes like this...

During exam period, most of us stayed at home to study and didn't go out to eat. So we produced lots of rubbish. It can piled up to many bags of rubbish and no one even bothers to bring them out of the house to throw into the dustbin. Of course I can't stand this situation even if it was just ONE bag full of rubbish.

But I waited. I wanted to see who would take the initial action to throw it. Even when most of them did step out of the house excluding me who has been prisoned in the house for 2 days, no one takes the action. In the end, I gave up. I planned to throw the rubbish after I came back home from exam. Ironically, I saw 2 of my nursing housemates threw the rubbish.

I felt delightful because at least some of them play their roles in maintaining the cleanliness of the house. But at the same time I felt ashamed of myself. Why do I need to wait for others to take the 1st step? Why not me who do it?

My pharmacist roommate and I get along quite well with my nursing housemates but my other roommates which are my coursemates too, don't get along well with them. After they threw the rubbish, they told me, "I think your roommates are not like girls, in fact you behave more like a girl rather than them."

Why do they said so? Usually I clean the house most of the time if you did follow my blog for the previous posts. My nursing housemates know it because they have eyes to see. Although my appearance looks like a boy, but my behaviour is not. I didn't know how to response but I was quite happy to hear it because it indicates that I'm a hygienic and responsible person.

It also shows that I'm a totally different person from my other roommates/coursemates. That's why I can get along well with friends from other streams including my housemates. In fact, I talk more with my pharmacist roommate and nursing housemates. I hardly talk to my room/course mates.

Again it all comes back to the world where I belong. I never like staying with my current coursemates because I know I have a gap with them. I'm so much different from them in terms of thinking, attitudes, behaviours and personality. I really didn't know how I ended up with them. Perhaps we do have some similarities but very little.

A lesson for myself today:

Take the first step.

Don't wait for others.

Forgive and forget.

Do more, expect less.

Be happy and make others happy! ^^

Caring Heart

I can't sleep. Although I tried to lie down on my bed, my mind kept thinking. Sometimes I question myself, do I care enough for others?

I think my answer is no. Sometimes I take things for granted. I always say family and friends are important to me and I love them all.

But again I question myself, if I really love them, why did I get angry with them sometimes?

Why did I speak impolitely to them?

Why didn't I call them or send them sms just to make sure that they are in good condition?

Why didn't I tell them I miss them or I love them?

So many whys...

At certain times, I really cared for everyone and whenever I saw them upset, I would try to cheer them up. But at certain times, I didn't care about anything at all. Why?

A caring heart should come naturally. It can't be made up. Even until now when I'm typing this post, I still couldn't find the answer to my questions. Does this mean that I don't have a caring heart?

I admit that sometimes I talk less. I joke less. I was alone most of the times. I don't smile that often. I look cool and people think that I'm hard to get along with. Although I acted coldly sometimes, that doesn't mean I'm a cold person. It's just that, this is the natural me. I don't like to pretend in front of people. I like to be myself. But I found that sometimes being myself is wrong. I really admire those people who can be good with everyone. How did they do that? I also admire those people who are likeable by everyone. Even God himself can't please everyone in this world, how can a human being do so?

I wish to have a bigger heart. Big enough to store all the cares I have for everyone. Everyday is a learning process. And as I write this post, I learnt something too. When we always look at the big picture, sometimes we might neglect the small little things that are actually important to us. So before I start to care for everyone, I shall start with those people around me.

Chill

A few days ago, a "Tukang Urut" came to my house to give my aunt a massage on her legs to relieve the pain due to old age. His job is to travel to people's houses and provide massage services. He charges RM20 per person and because of his good skills, he has many customers. Let me tell you, he is earning like mad!!

Why do I say so? Let me perform some simple calculations here. On average, he has around 10++ customers per day. Lets say to make it easy, we assume he massages 10 people per day, it means that he earns RM200 per day. Lets say 1 month = 30 days, he earns RM6000 per month. Even if you deduct weekends for break, he is still earning around RM4000 per month. The good news here is he doesn't even need to worry about paying tax! No shop lot, little investment, no legal license required.

Compare with a degree holder who works in an office earning almost the same amount or maybe less. What's the point if you graduate with 4.0 or first class honour and in the end you end up working with a bank or in any company which only pays you around that amount?

Even a person who doesn't have any degree can sometimes earn more than you. Success cannot be measured by the grade you obtain during school life. The grade is only a scale that labels how well you can memorize or understand the subject you are learning.

But of course, I didn't say that you need not work hard or give up your studies. Everyone had their own aims in life. I don't stress myself to study. Whenever I do anything, I do with my whole heart. So I give my best shot in everything. Whatever the outcome is, it is the result of my ability and effort which I put in. Hence, I won't feel that I'm wasting my time in this life. And when you do something with your whole heart, you'd feel happy in doing it. Not forcefully.

I hope this post might enlighten some of you who are stressed up with studies. Gambate! ^^

Just That Simple

你会不会忽然的出现

在街角的咖啡店

我会带着笑脸

挥手寒暄

和你坐着聊聊天

我多么想和你见一面

看看你最近改变

不再去说从前

只是寒暄

对你说一句

只是说一句

好久不见

Simple words but with sincerity which comes from heart.

可以感受得到他有多么的想念。。。

好久不见

I'm not really fond of listening to Eason's songs but this song {好久不见} has totally mesmerized me after being sung by them. The feels and emotions which harmoniously wrapped up with their voices can really touch one's heart. Although their voices are not perfect, where you can notice some voice vibration caused by nervousness, nevertheless the emotion itself has covered the weaknesses up.

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Life At Home

Ever since I came back, the only thing I did was...

EAT! EAT! EAT!

SLEEP! SLEEP! SLEEP!

I feel like a pig! @@

Unproductive days. Wastage.

Rynn Lim's Appearance In Malacca

爱上了林宇中

You can guess that this post will be about Rynn Lim. I went to his 签唱会 yesterday at Dataran Pahlawan, Melaka. I really don't know how to describe my feeling at that moment. I was very happy to see him in person. That happiness was indescribable. Although I'm not a big fan of his, I still like him very much and admire his talent in song composing. I listen to many songs by variety of singers but so far I truly only adore 4 of those artists from chinese music industry. They are Stefanie 孙燕姿, Rynn 林宇中, Jacky 张学友 and Jing 张芸京.

Though I was happy to see him yesterday, I was upset too when I saw the response from the public. There wasn't many people attended. I guess the publicity of his appearance in Malacca has not been widely spread. Even though my highest admiration is for Stefanie Sun, somehow I feel closer to Rynn Lim. Maybe partly because he is my senior from 摇篮手 and also my cousin's friend. Sometimes I really sympathize him. Becoming a local artist ain't that easy. You may see them living gloriously, but you don't know how they really live and feel deep within their heart. They are also normal human beings like us and their income based solely on us, the public.

I bought his album {Dearest Bride} and went to get his signature. I managed to talk him and invited him to come and watch Yao Lan Shou Live Concert next year. This is an annual concert for YLS held in UM and usually many local music producers and composers would attend. Rynn Lim and 李志清 have attended for the previous performance which was held on 24 February 2010.

Yesterday wasn't the first time for me to meet him in person and get his signature. When he released his 1st album, I went to support his mini concert and got his signature too. So in total, I have 2 of his original albums with his signature on them.

I didn't need to wait long in the queue for his autograph. Everything moved so fast and smooth. Like I said, there wasn't many people too. I wonder how would he feel seeing the response turned out to be like this.

There was a short game session and 3 people were being selected up. Their task was to sing his song, that's all. Easy, right? But I didn't raise my hand up to be selected because I don't really know his new songs well. Aiks... Miss it!

After the event, I went to yam cha with my friends. We went to De Rice Cafe located near Pure Bar Area. I ordered this!

Haha!! Kawaiidesu! To wind up this post of mine, I want to say "I love you, Rynn!"

Mega Tower Project

I came across this article where our "intelligent" Deputy Prime Minister told PNB to ignore the critics by the public and continue with the mega tower project with the reason that those who oppose to it are jealous. What the heck?! My dear DPM, what's the link between building a mega tower project and jealousy? I wonder if your brain is functioning well.

He further stated that this project will benefit the country. I can't see there is any benefit that we can gain from this tower except gaining a place in Guinness World of Record. Excuse me, DPM! In what way can this tower benefit us?! Are we going to use it? It is a basic necessity for the rakyat? NO!

So you keep saying it's not funded by the government but investors. Who are these investors? Where do they come from? Investors make up the general public! Or maybe the politicians? But in the end, all the money still comes from public. Where does politicians get their emoluments? Tax payers lah! Who else?

My Desired Colour

I saw this girl from one MV in YouTube. She's a member of 2NE1, a female group singers from Korea. I was attracted by her hair colour! It's so nice. It matches well with her fair skin and beautiful face features. I'm so deeply in love with her... HAIR! One day, I would try this colour too. Before that, I must get fairer first. Haha...